today

so it was the end of month at work today and in my business it is the craziest day of the month. the energy around the office is exciting. i have said it in th epast i am not the happiest man when i work but days like today are great. the excitement of everyone joining together as a team to try and reach a common goal. teamwork. the key to life
not just in the work place but in our everyday lives. depending on another person, relying that they will be able to pick up the slack where you lack. that is how it is in my marriage to E. i know that if i am down and out i can depend on her to pick me back up with just a smile a look or even the smallest kiss. and she knows that i am there for her 100% no matter what hapens in life. we are hubby and wife and it will remain that way for eternity. it is crazy we are both so young and found each other so early in life. i am glad because i was not liking who i was or the way that i was heading w/out her in my life.
it is crazy i have noticed that everytime i come on here to write how my day was or what is new in my life it always seems to come back to E. i love you bebek!!!

to you, my unborn baby
i love you so much and soon you will see
the importance of love and family.
unconditional love you will get from mommy and me
from now and through infinity.
don't ever forget we're right by your side
love and affection we will always provide
there's no guide in life, just take it in stride
i was supplied with the best parents worldwide
i can't deny in high school we'd collide
but in time that does subside
inside they have laid the foundation
and i just wish that i could show my appreciation
for their navigation through this operation
called life
a situation that calls for preparation
and they have given me the realization
that w/out hesitation, i can make my transformation
to father and pass on to you the education
another generation of the clan
and when your born i'll sit and tell you how it began
i looked in your mothers eyes and fell in love
push comes to shove, nothing more to be proud of
than your mother is an angel sent from above
to get me in line and kick me into shape
because of her i'm a man not an ape
when i'm down and out she's my escape
brings me out of the real world, and brings me somewhere i've never been
little did i know the whole time it was within
in the heart below the skin
with her on my side, doesn't matter if i lose or win
am fat or thin
she gave me my heart i was missing
like a man made of tin

a light at the end of the tunnel

well it has been a little over 2 months that we are pregnant. and E has not been in the best of shapr .. she has been sick .. and not feeling well .. having pains.. i have no idea how they do it ..women need to receive alot more credit than they get. it seems like constant pain and sickness, i could never last i have the smallest pain .. and i am complaining like a sissy. they say that after the first 3 months that it is suppose to get easier. man i hope so i feel so bad for my wife. she always seems upset.. and under the wheather.
well we just heard other great news .. another couple that we are close with that are moving to colorado n a week are having a babay as well.. they just found out that they are pregnant. it would have been great if they were staying here. it would b great for E . to have someone going through the same thing that she is. i try to b there for her .. i do ne thing that she asks .. but i still feel like there is so much more for me to do. it really makes me realize that i need to get my butt back into school and get things done. we are going to have a kid. crazy when you write it down and say it back. once i saw the heartbeat on our first exam i was blown away. i am goign to be a father. something that i have always wanted to be for my entire life. most likely because i have always loved my dad and respected him. he makes it seem so easy. i guess after 4 you get good practice btu he seems to have it in his blood. and since i am in his gene pool it should be in mine as well. like i said i have always wanted to have a family and kids. just never thought that it would happen so soon in life. o well i guess that all things in life happen for a reason at a certain point in our lives.
it is funny when i found out that we were having a child i askd my wife if that meant that i had to grow up? she sd yes, but when you think about it. no you do not .. you just need to be responsible and make sure that your family is taken care of w/ a roof over their heads, and a warm place underneatth that you can call home. i try to tell my wife that as long as we have each other and love each other than nothing else in life really seems to matter. happiness that is the fabric of life. family is #1 abovE ALL.. i am thankful for coming from such a wonderful family. from the start w/ my parents, the love that my siblings and i have for each other. i have tons of cousins and uncles that i know really well, and love. even though we may not be extremly close i know that i can depend on them for support and love .. as well they can from myself. like dad always says family forever!!!!

working again

well as usual it is saturday and i had to work. it is ok .. i have taken a few days off this week for dr's appt and to be with E. right now she is not feeling well @ all she has been sick and not feeling well at all. at least i have great news . we went to the OBGYN the other day .. and they said that everything is going great w/ the baby. we saw the heart beat it was healthy, and all seems to be going well. so i worked this morning only 4 hours not to bad. that i went and hit some golfs balls with my buddy who is moving to CO in about 2 weeks. he and i have become close friends and i must say it is gonna bite nto having him around. him and i have gotten back into golf together. and actually today we went and hit some balls @ the driving range. it is good to get out and keep practiving. we went last weekend down to my brothers country club. played 18 holes it was a good time . i shot better the time previously. but hey at least it is f un and i get to see my brother. we live so close to each other yet never get to meet up. it si shame i know. but at least we will b together to thanksgving .. him my self, E .. and KLOVE .. wil b celebrating together. it is a shame that we can not go to NYC . like planned bu.. it is for the better E .. needs her rest .. and from what it sounds like mom and dad have their hands full this week .. my sister, neices and nephew are stayin w/ my parents. should be for a full house .. but a wonderful holiday. hope you guys have a great time. see you soon

been awhile

well i am sorry to all who have been eagerly awaiting. all 3 of you. j/k ..
well we moved into our new pad and we are excited we like it very much . they say that the square footage is smaller than our last place ..but we think they are lying. .. our old place that is. we only moved into a 1 bedroom .. we decided on holding out on gettin a house. i guess it is a good thing .. since we have HUGE news to share. We are having a baby.. Yes it is true .. we just found out a week ago that E is pregnant. i know that it is still early . and we are not suppose to talk about it .. but forget that .. it is impossible when you are so excited about something to keep quite about it. it is like knowing the winning lotto #'s and sayin forget it. we will let someone else win. What are you crazy?
that does not happen.
i am still young in my years as well as E.. but we are both happy .. and know that this is a good thing for the both of us. we love each other more than ne thing in the world. and have wanted to start a family. granted it ti s alittle earlier than we planned . but non the less we are both ready and up for it. i knwo this is a huge step. but i know thaqt we will make great parents. we knwo what the value of family is, and plan to distill thaty into our unborn child.
what else?
well i have been married a little over 2 months now. and nothing has changed about the way i care about my wife. i oove her unconditionally, and will continue for the rest of our lives in eternity. life as a married man is pretty much the same as it was before. i got to come home after a long day of wrk and spend my nites w/ the woman i am happy to call my love. i am sure that you are happy to know .. that i am planning on working out more often. i just went back to the gym last nite for the first time in months. but it sure did feel good to get in there and run and lift a little. i am already sore and it has only been one day. i need to rest till sunday .. i am playin golf in san diego w/ my brother and some friends. it is a beautiful course and the last time that i was there i shot under a hundred. which is not hte greatest . but it was not to bad considering the dificulty of the course itself. i feel like i need to get 2 get out golfing more often. i feel like my game is improving the more i swing. tee time is 11:45 a little later that i prefer, but it is down south a little bit . so there is a drive.
work.
well any one who reads what i write knows that i am not a big fan of my job. well things have not chnaged all that much. i am a little more motivated these days because there is a 42inch flat screen plasma @ wrk in a raffle. so i have been giving a little more effort. i hope it pays off in the long run. that would look great in the bathroom. i could hook up my atari to it. that would just be fantasy.
well i know that i am all over the place .. and it is because i am tired after a long week . .i know it is friday and it is only 10:50.. but i am tired .. i guess that is life as a papa.. ....