Excitement

Alright so it is rapidly approaching we are only 9 days out till the big day. everyone keeps calling and seeing if I am ready . and that they are so excited to be coming out here and share in the big day. it sounds like everyone is goign to make a vacation out of the whole trip. Which is great it will give us all the opportunity to hang out a few days prior to the wedding as well. the family is going to start coming out on monday. starting with mom and dad. the first arrivals .. I have no idea what tiem that they are coming in.. I have to work so I am sure that I will be there when they get in..

than next would be my sister .. her hubby and the children. 3 little darling angels that I do not get to see nearly enough .. in fact I never get to see them and it gets real depressing .. especially after I am with them for a short period of time .. and than taken away and not seen for months... sometimes even years.. I miss them so much and I do not get to see them grow up like I wish I could. every once in awhile I get to see them .. this last month when I went home for my family reunion. I got to see my sister and her oldest child. she is now 7 .. and I can remerb the day that she was born .. I remember the trip out there to see her for the first time. me and my older brother drove out there. it was a great trip ..him and I have taken 2 road trips together. once to Illinois and another to Minnesota. both were good times. on that trip to Illinois i actually learned how to drive. when we got up there my mom took me out in her mini van .. and showed me the ropes.. obviously not on any main roads to start .. we would start on dirt roads that were desolate. it was a great place to learn. as well we went golfing out there .. i think that it was the only time that i have ever gone golfing w/ my brother in law. .. ( who really does not feel like a bro in law.. he is more like a brother) it is funny the first time i met him .. i thought that he was gay (sometimes i still think he might be.. j/k b-boy) he is a wonderful guy and a great person. .. and a spectacular father as well... nto to sure how is golf was .. it was so long ago .. and i am sure that he has improved w/ age .. i even understand that he has been gettin my sister out there swinging the clubs. i have been tryin to get my girl to go out .. but it is not her cup of tea.

anyway i got WAY of track here .. so my sisters clan will be coming in on tuesday ..as well will my future inlaws... who are really great people they have taken me in as one of their own .. and shown great hospitality ... and than my groomsman .. come in the same day i beleive. which is great .,. i will not see them that day but that is ok .. it is mom's bday . and i am sure that we will do something.. so than i will see my boys on wednesday mornign sometime. i thik that they are going to come over here .. and we will hang out by the pool .. BBQ .. and just have a good time .. cuz later on in the evening we have a wedding rehersal to attend. it will be @ the same location as the wedding.. and than immediatly following that we will be attending dinner all together.. which mom has hooked up .. so we can all thank her (thanks mom and dad)

than on thursday the rest of the fsamily will start rolling in from the aunts and uncles.. and rest of the friends flying in from out of town . .. through out the rest of the week .. people will be flying in from all over .. vegas .. NY .. florida .. it is going to be a great time .. and i am getting so excited .. i can not wait to be standing up there with my beautiful wife to be .. and take our vow of love and devotion .. in front of our closest friends .. and family members..

Karma .. it is a bitch

Well it gets you everytime.. no matter what happens in life .. like 311 said .. everything you do comes back to you no matter what it may be. sp i played hooky last week . went golfinh had a great ole time. so what do you think happens now? i'll tell you .. i am sick .. how much does that suck. i have a sore throat. i am a little stuffy. and i am gettin married in less than 2weeks. i need to make sure i kick this asap. so i decided to go to the Dr. today. he gave me some antibiotics todl me to get rest and drink lots of fluids .. so i am doing so as well playin a little tiger woods for PS2. i am sure i will get rid of it by than i sure hope so. hawaii would not be the same if i have to stay in the room sick the whole time. but my woman loves me .. and i know that if need be she would stay there and take care of me. that is love.
i would do the same for her and she knows it. she has been having a rough past few days .. some of her bridesmaids are giving her a hard time, and really making things difficult on her. you beleive that crap. 2 weeks before the wedding and they start pulling stunts. she keeps blaming herself but i just wish that there was a way that i could explain to her that it is their fault. she is not the one that is being immature. it is her friends. so what if 2 of her friends don't get along. this is life and i understand that. but do they not understand that this is her big day .. that she has been looking forward to probably since being a little girl. .. i am sure they would not want her to screw up their day. if they are your true friends they would put their differences to the side, and just concentrate on the bride to be!!!
i just can't stand to see her so upset. it truly hurts me inside 2 see her like this . so depressed and just gives up care. all i want to do for her is take away her pain. that is my goal.. my objective for the rest of my life. . to love .. honor adore .. and care for her forever.

so i decided that i needed a few days off of work ... it had been great time off.. although my stomach has been upset .. i have been out golfing everyday this week tryin to improve my game .. it is happening .. slowly but it is great.. i love just to get out there in the morning on the fresh cut grass ... no ne around except for yourself .. your thoughts .. and your balls....
golf balls that is..
the wedding is coming up so quick .. less that 3weeks away ..and that we tie the nautical knot . and than off to hawaii.. it is gonna be so much fun.. neither of us have ever been before so it will be somethig we can experiance together for the first time ... she reeally does nt like to swim much .. but i think that when we get out there it will be a different story .. i think that she will love being out there and not want to come back. someone that i just ran into at the course today .. actually sd that he will be there the same time as we will .. he actually told me i should bring my golf clubs and we can go out together .. as well last nite .. i got a cell phone( i know ne one who knows me .. knows that it was not my choice) the salesman actually is going to ebe right around the block from our resort while we are there .. pretty small world huh..
to top it aLL off my boss @ wrk .. will be in hawaii as well same time .. but he will not be n the same island. ..

this should be a great escape.. we deserve it .. putting in alot of time @ wrk .. and wrkin ourselves to the bone .. ( i know that i have not this week .. but i have the rest of the year:) ) just her myself ..a beach and a few exotic drinks .. should make for a wonderful time.. well the countdown continues... (18 days till the honeymoon .. and 19till paradise) as much as i love my fiance .. which is more than i ever thought that anyone was capable of... i don't know which i am more excited for .....at least one thing is certain .. and probly the most important thing is that i am not 1 bit nervous .. i know that we are makin the right decision .. and that we both love each other very much .. and this is till the end ..
not a few years .. not if we get in a little fight we break up .. we are meant to be together .. and when you knwo something like that .. there is very much in the world .. that can get to you .. i love you honey

so i decided that i needed a few days off of work ... it had been great time off.. although my stomach has been upset .. i have been out golfing everyday this week tryin to improve my game .. it is happening .. slowly but it is great.. i love just to get out there in the morning on the fresh cut grass ... no ne around except for yourself .. your thoughts .. and your balls....
golf balls that is..
the wedding is coming up so quick .. less that 3weeks away ..and that we tie the nautical knot . and than off to hawaii.. it is gonna be so much fun.. neither of us have ever been before so it will be somethig we can experiance together for the first time ... she reeally does nt like to swim much .. but i think that when we get out there it will be a different story .. i think that she will love being out there and not want to come back. someone that i just ran into at the course today .. actually sd that he will be there the same time as we will .. he actually told me i should bring my golf clubs and we can go out together .. as well last nite .. i got a cell phone( i know ne one who knows me .. knows that it was not my choice) the salesman actually is going to ebe right around the block from our resort while we are there .. pretty small world huh..
to top it aLL off my boss @ wrk .. will be in hawaii as well same time .. but he will not be n the same island. ..

this should be a great escape.. we deserve it .. putting in alot of time @ wrk .. and wrkin ourselves to the bone .. ( i know that i have not this week .. but i have the rest of the year:) ) just her myself ..a beach and a few exotic drinks .. should make for a wonderful time.. well the countdown continues... (18 days till the honeymoon .. and 19till paradise) as much as i love my fiance .. which is more than i ever thought that anyone was capable of... i don't know which i am more excited for .....at least one thing is certain .. and probly the most important thing is that i am not 1 bit nervous .. i know that we are makin the right decision .. and that we both love each other very much .. and this is till the end ..
not a few years .. not if we get in a little fight we break up .. we are meant to be together .. and when you knwo something like that .. there is very much in the world .. that can get to you .. i love you honey

why sundays rock

well it is now less than 3 weeks away from the big wedding day .. this had to be the quickest year in my life. it just seems to go buy just so fast. especially when such a life changing event occuring soon.. i am not in the least bit scared or worried .. my fiance and i are meant to be together. it is almost like she is my other half.. the part that i was never able to understand until we were together. they say that nothing in life is a sure bet. well i know for sure that we are making a wonderful decision by taking the next step.
so with the wedding coming up so soon .. and sunday is my only free day any more. where do you think i have been and been doing.
well i am sorry but you are wrong .. i just got back from a fantastic round of 18hole golf. my first time at this new course and i have to say .. it was one of the nicest i have ever stepped foot on. however my game was not the best i ever shot.. but i did not do bad .. i held my own .. and as long as you remeber those few good shots. that will get you through till the next round.
i have been golfing for a few years now. you would not be able to tell by the score.. but that is cuz my putting game is horrible all of a sudden. .. it is ironic .. when i was younger we use to mini golf all the time .. i like to think i was pretty good.. all of a sudden you take out the obstacles .. and my brain has no idea what to do. it is as if i can't hit the easy shots .. but i can hit the hard ones... i guess that is just how life is sometimes... hit or miss
you can't win them all .... but you can try ...!!!!

a poem about work

how and why do we do it everyday?
to collect a check just to get our pay?
drop on the dime and we do what they say
seems that we never have time to play
work us like dogs .. yeah to the bone.
seems like i'm here and i'm never at home
24-7 i'm always on the phone
please somone tell me that i'm not all alone
who feels like this
we always gettin dissed
tell me i'm not the only one that's pissed
i'm still waitin for my reward
i got an apartment i can barely afford
i'll take my gripe to the chairman of the board
i will speak mine .. i will not be ignored
there's a few things that we need to change
don't look at me funny don't look at me strange
while i'm at work your at the driving range
don't you think that's a little jacked up
you don't even think that;s a little messed up
don't trust me or the work that i do
well i got one thing to say to you
screw you i quit
and i bid you adieu

another day in the books

well it did not start out the way that i had hoped but none the less. it was anohter day done. usually at the start of a fresh month i do not have to work on saturday. however since our team did not hit our goal. thwy are makin us work a sever amount of OT. thinking that it will drive our #'s down. how crazy. work your employees to the bone month after month w/ no break or time off. yeah real good motivation to get them back on your side. how about a reward or a job well done the other 11x's that you hit your goal this year.

o well i am sorry enough about work. i know... you really don't want to hear about it but my job really can take a toll on a person. i am a collector / skiptracer for a very well know company. prior to my job i am currently in i have never had a collections job. i just kinda fell into it .. got comfy now don't really want to leave. (although the time may be coming soon)
i never would have gotten into it if i had known that it is pretty much: u get paid to argue w/ people all day. someone tells you that a loved one just passed away, and they have no $$$ and can't make it on their own. i have to tell them that i am sorry but you still need to pay.
this really gets to you. i find sometimes when i go home after a long day @ wrk (which seems like all the time) .. that i get snippy .. i snap sometimes on people over the sligghtest thing. if you had known me before my current job. you would know that i am not a very agressive person. this job just does things to you. you do not feel like yourself sometimes. i try not to take the job home w/ me .. .but i am there so much the line between home and work becomes blurred... literally working 12 hour days .. that means between commuting getting ready, and all the other nonsense involved w/ wrk.. i get about 8 hours in a 24 hour day (excludng sleep) to be with my loved ones or have some time for myself.

i guess that is a good thing that i do not have a child yet, i would not be able to give it the same love that both my parents have given me and all of my siblings. i have no idea how they did it. i have a cat and a brand new puppy. i try to not get the cat jealous by playing w. the pup to much. theses are just pets, how my parents were able to raise 4 wonderful kids and make every one of them feel loved and special. how do they do it.
of course when i was younger i did not see things this way. when i had a curfew or was nto allowed to go and do certain things, i would get angry with my parents. i would start a fight and say stupid things thinking that they did not want me to have a good time. when all that they were doing was looking out for my best intrests, and making sure that i would not get into trouble. i can only hope that i am half as good as my rents were on bringing us up.
family above all.....
of course you need a job to have money to put a roof over you and your family. but keep in mind what good the roof. if there is no family underneath to protect.

the world

the world we're in today
is the proces of decay
people are steppin on each other
or whatever is in their way
words filled with hatred is all they have to say
things are black and white: but should be more like grey.
there should be unity and not this seperation
but that is not what i'm seeing across the entire nation
they don't know me: but their already hating
as if i were satin:
i heard him and saddam are dating
don't want to see the crazy babies they be making
don't want to see what is in his oven or what he has been baking
them and bin laden got the US shakin
but we mudt remember that we are one nation
so let's stand together like we're of blood relation


i don't know much but this much i know
we're suppose to work together
and together we're suppose to grow
we're suppose to work together
to improve this situation
but the way that we are heading we are closer to damn nation
where are we gonna turn for a little salvation
we're left all alone as in masturbation
however: im not feeling the same stimulation
why can't we come together and start the celebration
now i'm not saying that anarchy is the way to be
but they have a feeling of unity
not tryin to deceive
all those that they conceive
i think a new leader is what we need to retrieve

so give it up for the free world you see
and when i say free, i mean from adversity
the way it should be...
not this infliction
that's surrounding around me
it's non fiction
my prediction is an eviction
due to an election that was under and investigation
and it's caused an escalation
in security across the nation
from buses to bus stations
it's delayin the transportation
which is delayin the sanitation
which is making it smell like shit
i'm sick and tired of it
when's it gonna end
when our enemy's our friend
his help will he lend
his troops will he send
to be on our side
with the money that _____ tried 2 hide
he thought it would subside
but think about how many people have died
between the pentagon and the 2 towers now gone
how many more at stake before we all get along
if we stand together there is no power as strong

my first rant

some of you may or may not have heard. but it is true .. I am that guy!. a simple man .. take things one day at a time. ferris bueler once sd "life moves pretty fast, if you don't stop and look you could miss it"

if only when i was younger i had listened to what he said. it is the truth i'm 25 years young and getting married a month from today. now don't get me wrong: i am not sayin i am not happy. in fact opposite i am the happiest man on earth. i have a beautiful woman and we are ready to pledge our love for each other for the rest of our lives. life could not be any better. all i am saying is that years seem like months: months seem like weeks .. and so on. i never thought that i would be getting married at my age. but when things happen you knwo that they were for the right reason.

you are riding a bike as a child without a care in the world. not looking forward to going back to school come september. little did we know back than. always rushing to be an adult. could nto wait till we had our license and a car so that we would go anywhere we pleased.
wished that we had a job so that we could have money to purchase baseball cards. but now the only things my funds seem to go are bills. people in life come and go. someone may be your best friend one day and than you do not talk to them again. people change, attitudes change how come life can't be as simple as when you were that child on that bike.

i have great news for you. it still can. just remeber to have fun in anything that you are up against. don't take things to heart and always have a sense of humor. we do not know why we are here on earth, but while we are here we may as well make te best of it. this is how i look at life. i have plenty to say so if you are open minded and would like to hear more about my thoughts please stay tuned. .. .